HELLO LOVELY LJ KIDDIES!

okay so many of you know that i literally died on lj around a year ago, and i havent been posting fics since 2 years ago. well if you still happen to follow me on lj, you might as well follow me up on tumblr, since I'm on there more now than here. So please follow and I'll try and follow back, but the probability of such is a bit low since i have so many people im following, that its hard to keep up with all their posts >< but please do follow if you like to stay updated with me :]

 
( でてえんざ！ )

I seriously need to stop literally crying over the most stupid things -.-

okay so if none of you have known, I actually just moved in january and am back in my old school district, but my last school moved so slow, that my new school is a good 100 pages or more ahead in the txt book, so in all my classes i have to make up all the missing work and learn all of them, while doing the work im getting everyday. I can't handle that much work, i really cant. and if someone gives me that "if you apply yourself" shit, imma stab you with a fork, because that shit dont work.

anyways, today it finally cracked on me, im way to overwhelmed with work that i actually started to cry when i couldnt do this one thing in chemistry, which is stoichiometry. other than that, i also have a late project due in 2 days that i got an extension on because i told my teacher about my situation, and i have a drivers ed project due soon also, and i need to learn a kajillion units in world history before friday so i can take the midterm, and all this shit i dont need in my life just crushing me.

I hate school and the educational system, i dont care how hard you have it, and dont try and compare and compete with me, I'm REALLY not in the mood to banter and bitch.

anyways, sorry f-list friends for all these bombardments of emo/pissed off posts lately. due to the fact i lack any other sort of output for my emotions, this is the only thing. and i havent been writing fics lately because, well, *points up*

anyways im blowing off all this stuff because I absolutely dont give a damn anymore.

Okay so I have the DAMN decency to knock on your doors, but you can't make the effort to do so, when you can make the effort to just turn the knob and open my door? And don't give me that "Liars don't deserve it." Because that's fuckin BS, when you've lied COUNTLESS of times! So take your pompous self righteous attitude and SHOVE IT.

I really wanna just crawl into a hole and die, right now. Today has been massive shit.

English - Okay, I can handle jumping from jumbled lessons and Greek plays to something like The Taming of the Shrew. I guess... anyways, english wasn't so horrid. Boring, but not horrid.

Band - Decent. Band Director boring and quirky. But egh. Normally it's one of my favorite classes, but this guy makes it so boring. OHS's director was fun and hilarious. This guy is just.. bleghhh

Chem - Demonstrations are back, woohoo, but teacher is rather, low on energy >_> Not so great. Her teaching isn't that great either. I preferred Mrs. Warkentien at OHS much more than this woman.

Lunch - no friends, who the hell am I to sit with -.-?

Spanish - nose dive of my day. Normally spanish is one of my favorite classes, because I love learning languages, but this is just shit. Okay so first my teacher is it like "I don't give help." So I'm like "... okay? I can handle that." Then immersion was done quite heavily. Which was hard to follow. Then I found out where we were in the text book. At OHS I was on pg 68, my new school is on 180... how the hell am I going to learn over 100 pages of information before monday?! That is just total shit! And I cant take the quiz another day, because it's "Fairfax County" so WHAT THE FUCK -.- To make matters worse, I have this woman every day -.-

So, I'll go cry now I guess, hopefully tomorrow is better... syke I have spanish again -.-

Okay, so, today is my last day at OHS, the school I've attended for the past four months. The sad thing is, I wont be able to tell all my friends goodbye, since I don't go to all my classes today, also since they don't know I'm leaving today. But even so, today, I'll try leaving with a smile, so the last thing my friends remember is that, and not tears. I've probably said this before, but when I first transferred to OHS, I told myself that I'd not befriend anyone, to avoid hurting myself, and the other party. But, now, I'm happy that I didn't follow through with it. I meant some of the most amazing people in my life. OHS is the place where I truly have acted as myself in public. So free, so open. I'll never forget OHS, it'll always be in my heart, despite the fact that I've been there for such a short time. And I like how i just said I'm not going to cry when I'm crying writing this post. -.- Anyways, it's time to straighten up, and head to school. This is goodbye OHS. You'll always be in my heart.

Okay so I'm turning 16 tomorrow, woohoo, but sadly enough I'm not doing anything haha. Normally one would expect someone to do something for their 16th birthday, but me not so much. To be honest I never really do anything for my birthday anyways. I did do something one year with my best friends, back in 08, where we totally trashed my house XD but it's all good. I don't entirely mind haha. Also with me moving so much I don't think I'd have a set place to do it at XDXD ... Okay maybe the fact that I'm concealing the place I live right now might have something to do with it, but eghhhhh

Now that I think about it, I haven't been thinking about what I wanted for my birthday... It never really came to mind... I haven't bought anything for myself in over half a year, nor have I wanted to buy anything... strange, very strange.

Also, just recently I've been told I share the same birthday as 2PM's Junho, which totally rocked my world! Then a couple hours later I was told I share the same birthday as Sakurai Sho from Arashi, which was totally epic beans! Then I woke up today, and my best friend told me I share the same birthday as Naruto's Dad. Now THAT totally makes my birthday worth it XD

So after 2:30 AM of Monday morning, I am looking forward to another year in my life :]

 
( 기다리다 지친다 )